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Today I woke up at 4:30am. I am going to go out on a limb here and say that perhaps I am not yet back to my regular schedule. I can't decide if its left over jet lag or just anxiety about my first day back at school. I think its probably fair to say that both are playing a significant role in my status. I have Yoga in less than an hour. One would think that this would be a good thing. Relaxing, energizing, etc... However... I am a fool when it comes to Yoga. I have a bumper sticker on my desk that says "I'm Knot into Yoga"! There are very specific reasons for this. Each time I make a complete fool of myself. Its the tree pose that really gets me. I cant stand up worth a darn. Then I do that awkward I'm embarrassed laugh and in return get shot with eye bullets from the instructor. Turns out I'm not cut out for downward facing dog or the warrior pose either. I guess I am seeking meditation. Today I would kill for it. I am thinking that someday when I take over the world and start my own University it will be fully equipped with a prayer/meditation room. I think I am suffering from prayer withdrawal. Or as I come off the mountain from my trip I am longing for that thickness The Holy Land provided for me. Who knows really.
Today I am really sad that my friend Becca is leaving. It shouldn't be a big deal but I am making it one. Today the people at Walmart made me cry. Who knows whats next. Yoga probably... hehehe... Putting on my tough girl mask and going to face the the world of big mirrors and sticky mats. I think maybe later Ill crawl in my gym locker and have a serious discussion with God.