What I Thought I Wanted and What I Got Instead

Everything I seem to write down today is coming off a little more negatively than I would hope for it to. After all I am trying to kick that bad habit. OPTIMISM ALL THE WAY! It just seems that disappointment is the theme of the moment. A smart person would stop writing right here so I will continue. I think its fair to say we all experience disappointment Disappointment in places, people, situations. I surprise myself because I claim to be pretty set in knowing what I want to do and who I am therefor getting a bit thrown off when I am able to drastically change my opinion about______ (insert Noun here)so quickly. There is a song by Sara Groves that hits this all on the head (the title of this blog stems from there as well). It's crazy how we all make our minds up and then change them. It is scary when all of a sudden I am standing up for something that yesterday I knew nothing about. Tomorrow I will be defending someone I don't know today. YIKES... sounds like stress to me! Anyway... The most important part from this lyric is the lines after what I included in the title. "What I thought I wanted and What I got instead leaves me broken yet grateful." the yet grateful is substitute with peaceful and faithful as well. Those are what I am working on today. I am doing really good in the grateful category. I have found so much in the things I now deem insignificant. We learn from our mistakes and we usually can walk away with some good knowledge after a bad experience. I will explore these further in my head this afternoon... its off to change the world in my Algebra class!